My Departure

My husband struggles with alcoholism and I found out last year he was using crack-cocaine. I caught him out in the garage and I struggled with the decision greatly but his addiction is so strong that in the end, he can't get away from it. I am pregnant with his child but when I talked to him about getting into rehab, he became extremely violent.

He was high and punched me in the face, dragged me by the hair to our front door and kicked my head back and arms repeatedly until I let go of the door jam. My hair was so long and beautiful but he had yanked huge patches and chunks out and I looked so ugly. I had to cut it all off and let it grow all over again.He forced me to go with him to get more crack-cocaine and tried to force me to smoke it with him and slapped and punched me over and over calling me names and screaming at me the whole time because I refused. There was no amount of abuse that could make me do that to our baby. He'd have to kill me first. And he tried. He stripped my clothes off punching me in the head and body, forced me to lie on my stomach and sodomized me while whipping me with a curtain rod. For the remainder of the week he cried and apologized and vowed to get into rehab. He promised me he'd never treat me that way again. I wanted to leave but had nowhere to go.

We moved to Filion, MI to be closer to his employment and things were going so well that I truly believed we had made it through a very difficult trial. Shortly after the move it started all over again and by that time I was already showing and very concerned about the baby. I felt more confident in my ability to leave him because since he wouldn't go to work I asked his employer if I could take his place and he agreed. He even trained me how to do everything because I didn't know the first thing about building construction. My husband wasn't as abusive as last time but he always went through honeymoon periods, then build-up of tensions, and verbal abuse which led up to physical abuse. When he choked me and threw me up against the side of the house because I wouldn't give him my check, I decided it was time definitely time to leave.