I have taken some time off of school now that the baby has arrived. He is 5 months 18 hrs. and 13 minutes old.  I am feeling much better now about my life and the direction it is taking.  I began corresponding with my first boyfriend from 15 years ago and there has been much rejoicing ever since. yay.

We met again on FaceBook around 2 years after he and his wife decided to get a divorce.  They are still friends, which is a good sign to me.  He always has been and always will be the man for me. I never stopped loving him but when he was reassigned to Germany and I was sent to Hunter Army Airfield, GA we lost touch with each other for a few years.  Shortly after we began speaking again and when he informed me that he was getting married, I stopped talking to him because I felt it was immoral to correspond with him at that point.  I am not overjoyed that he is getting a divorce but am very pleased to be able to call him mine again.

Even though my husband was violently abusive with an explosive temper I had gone back with him again thinking it was just the drugs and that he was done with that so things would be wonderful again. I am amazed at how truly stupid I can be. It is just a real eye opener when you look in the mirror and realize you are looking at the dumbest smart person you know.  The fact that I had begun speaking with my dear friend helped me through all of my decisions and helped me realize what I was actually dealing with in my estranged husband.