I have taken some time off of school now that the baby has arrived. He is 5 months 18 hrs. and 13 minutes old. I am feeling much better now about my life and the direction it is taking. I began corresponding with my first boyfriend from 15 years ago and there has been much rejoicing ever since. yay.
We met again on FaceBook around 2 years after he and his wife decided to get a divorce. They are still friends, which is a good sign to me. He always has been and always will be the man for me. I never stopped loving him but when he was reassigned to Germany and I was sent to Hunter Army Airfield, GA we lost touch with each other for a few years. Shortly after we began speaking again and when he informed me that he was getting married, I stopped talking to him because I felt it was immoral to correspond with him at that point. I am not overjoyed that he is getting a divorce but am very pleased to be able to call him mine again.
Even though my husband was violently abusive with an explosive temper I had gone back with him again thinking it was just the drugs and that he was done with that so things would be wonderful again. I am amazed at how truly stupid I can be. It is just a real eye opener when you look in the mirror and realize you are looking at the dumbest smart person you know. The fact that I had begun speaking with my dear friend helped me through all of my decisions and helped me realize what I was actually dealing with in my estranged husband.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Moving on up
I just received textbooks for my next two courses online...Survey of Mathematics and The KU Handbook for Writers. I am looking forward to having a math class because my last two courses both required lots and lots of writing assignments. I love to write and it was rewarding to get back into something like that. I didn't realize how talented I could be! Hooray for Kaplan University and hooray for me!!
Friday, January 22, 2010
I've completed my first term at Kaplan University online!
I complete my first term on Jan. 26, 2010!! At the end of this term I will have 46 credits total and be well on my way to becoming a bonafide hustler...er I mean Business Professional :) I am SO exited. My baby is due on May 22, 2010 so I will have time to complete this coming term just before the baby comes. I have a crib, an old crib, but a crib all the same. It's so old that it has one of those huge sticker thingies on the front of it. Now that's old. I just need to find a mattress for it and a laptop. My GI bill should be kicked in real soon so that's two less things to worry about. I aquired a dresser that can double as a changing table if I can only get a changing pad to put on the top of it.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Free ColorQuiz used by many employers to determine personality
 | MLeeanne took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Is easily exhausted from too much argument and har..." Click here to read the rest of the results. |
Very quick and accurate. I was actually impressed! The professor in the management course I'm taking recommended this fun and simple click-of-a-mouse quiz.
Friday, January 8, 2010
A Fresh Start: Ch. 2, Baby Soft
I am in week 20 of my pregnancy and still have only gained 10 lbs. My Ob/Gyn wanted me to gain 40 lbs. total because I was underweight to start but the ultrasound indicates that although baby is extremely tiny, there doesn't seem to be any complications. I don't have the money to buy a crib, changing table, baby clothes or diapers and I can barely afford my rent so I'm praying for a miracle. Who knows maybe I've found it?
Over the course of the past year and a half, I've developed a new body scrub with kitchen ingredients. It has so many benefits!! I was on steroid treatments for almost six years and had gone from a size 00 to a size 13 after so many treatments. No amount of diet or exercise would take that weight off. I did so much research my eyes started to cross and then I figured it out; caffeine acts as a vascular constrictor and redistributes (shrinks) fat cells when applied topically. To all the women out there that's a good thing. It prevents and diminishes both vericose veins and cellulite.
Not only that but with the right mixture of ingredients it moisturizes like no other and even gives skin a nice healthy golden glow. It has even helped to decrease the skin irritations that can come along with Celiac Sprue. Usually too much exfoliation causes severely dry skin but not the blend I have. I use it every day and it works for me! I went down ten pants sizes in a six month period using this scrub. I would have probably lost more if I hadn't conceived. Who knew eating so much sage helps you get pregnant!!??
Over the course of the past year and a half, I've developed a new body scrub with kitchen ingredients. It has so many benefits!! I was on steroid treatments for almost six years and had gone from a size 00 to a size 13 after so many treatments. No amount of diet or exercise would take that weight off. I did so much research my eyes started to cross and then I figured it out; caffeine acts as a vascular constrictor and redistributes (shrinks) fat cells when applied topically. To all the women out there that's a good thing. It prevents and diminishes both vericose veins and cellulite.
Not only that but with the right mixture of ingredients it moisturizes like no other and even gives skin a nice healthy golden glow. It has even helped to decrease the skin irritations that can come along with Celiac Sprue. Usually too much exfoliation causes severely dry skin but not the blend I have. I use it every day and it works for me! I went down ten pants sizes in a six month period using this scrub. I would have probably lost more if I hadn't conceived. Who knew eating so much sage helps you get pregnant!!??
A Fresh Start: Chapter 1, A to B
I started school on November 11, 2009 and am pursuing an Associates of Applied Science for Business Administration. My employer told me that he has a position as apartment management that will open up for me just before I graduate. He is so awesome and I feel so fortunate to have the opportunities he's opened up for me. He wants me to attain this goal and open my business down state where he and his siblings hope to build a dairy farm and continue to work for him. He is an excellent connection to have and it was in my plans to relocate anyway so it might just work out if I can make it over this hurdle.
My ultimate goal is to open up a gluten-free specialty store. I suffer from celiac sprue and I just know that this is my purpose in life. People who have celiac conditions can feel really left out of all the fun at celebratory events due to the lack of delicious treats and it would be very rewarding to me to be able to supply the joys of tasty food to people who have such limited options.
My ultimate goal is to open up a gluten-free specialty store. I suffer from celiac sprue and I just know that this is my purpose in life. People who have celiac conditions can feel really left out of all the fun at celebratory events due to the lack of delicious treats and it would be very rewarding to me to be able to supply the joys of tasty food to people who have such limited options.
My Departure
My husband struggles with alcoholism and I found out last year he was using crack-cocaine. I caught him out in the garage and I struggled with the decision greatly but his addiction is so strong that in the end, he can't get away from it. I am pregnant with his child but when I talked to him about getting into rehab, he became extremely violent.
He was high and punched me in the face, dragged me by the hair to our front door and kicked my head back and arms repeatedly until I let go of the door jam. My hair was so long and beautiful but he had yanked huge patches and chunks out and I looked so ugly. I had to cut it all off and let it grow all over again.He forced me to go with him to get more crack-cocaine and tried to force me to smoke it with him and slapped and punched me over and over calling me names and screaming at me the whole time because I refused. There was no amount of abuse that could make me do that to our baby. He'd have to kill me first. And he tried. He stripped my clothes off punching me in the head and body, forced me to lie on my stomach and sodomized me while whipping me with a curtain rod. For the remainder of the week he cried and apologized and vowed to get into rehab. He promised me he'd never treat me that way again. I wanted to leave but had nowhere to go.
We moved to Filion, MI to be closer to his employment and things were going so well that I truly believed we had made it through a very difficult trial. Shortly after the move it started all over again and by that time I was already showing and very concerned about the baby. I felt more confident in my ability to leave him because since he wouldn't go to work I asked his employer if I could take his place and he agreed. He even trained me how to do everything because I didn't know the first thing about building construction. My husband wasn't as abusive as last time but he always went through honeymoon periods, then build-up of tensions, and verbal abuse which led up to physical abuse. When he choked me and threw me up against the side of the house because I wouldn't give him my check, I decided it was time definitely time to leave.
He was high and punched me in the face, dragged me by the hair to our front door and kicked my head back and arms repeatedly until I let go of the door jam. My hair was so long and beautiful but he had yanked huge patches and chunks out and I looked so ugly. I had to cut it all off and let it grow all over again.He forced me to go with him to get more crack-cocaine and tried to force me to smoke it with him and slapped and punched me over and over calling me names and screaming at me the whole time because I refused. There was no amount of abuse that could make me do that to our baby. He'd have to kill me first. And he tried. He stripped my clothes off punching me in the head and body, forced me to lie on my stomach and sodomized me while whipping me with a curtain rod. For the remainder of the week he cried and apologized and vowed to get into rehab. He promised me he'd never treat me that way again. I wanted to leave but had nowhere to go.
We moved to Filion, MI to be closer to his employment and things were going so well that I truly believed we had made it through a very difficult trial. Shortly after the move it started all over again and by that time I was already showing and very concerned about the baby. I felt more confident in my ability to leave him because since he wouldn't go to work I asked his employer if I could take his place and he agreed. He even trained me how to do everything because I didn't know the first thing about building construction. My husband wasn't as abusive as last time but he always went through honeymoon periods, then build-up of tensions, and verbal abuse which led up to physical abuse. When he choked me and threw me up against the side of the house because I wouldn't give him my check, I decided it was time definitely time to leave.
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